For seven years I lived in the desert. My husband took me there when
we were first married. We arrived in the fall after
the leaves had fallen, and my first view of the mountains looked like a
barren wasteland. People would say, "Aren't they beautiful?" and I
would look at them, dumbfounded. How could
anyone say this was
beautiful? I missed the lush rainforest, water everywhere, and most
of all, my family; but I loved my husband and my home was wherever he
was. I felt that we needed to be there, but I didn't want to be. I
cried a lot in those days. I was homesick in so many ways. I felt the
land and the weather were harsh, and well, mean-
to me. I
took it personally, I felt it personally. I remember the winter wind
rushing across the way and slamming into me, straight through my thick woolen winter
coat. It felt like a slap in the face, like I had been struck. I felt knocked down a lot in those days.
But
time has a way of acclimating one, and I very slowly adjusted to it. I
experienced real change in the seasons for the first time in my life. My first sight
of snow was a softly falling one. It filled me with excitement and
stillness, I had no idea what silence was until that
moment. In the spring I marveled at the profusion of colors and I
picked wildflowers in the mountains, always wanting to stop and gather
more and more. I marveled again in the fall, at the change in colors as
the whole mountainside was set ablaze in fiery reds and golds. I had
never seen anything like it, but in books, and here I was standing in
the midst of it. It was beautiful and overwhelming and awesome to me.
We
took road trips down winding roads that we had no idea where they would
end up, stopping whenever we felt like it, going as long and as far as
we wanted. We camped and fished and I tasted the "best steak ever",
cooked over a fire, up a canyon, by a brook. I liked bundling up when
the air turned crisp and I loved the change I felt in the air, every
time one season was about to emerge from another.
I
know the pain of parting from what I love and is familiar, but I also
know the joy of new loves and new familiarity. I've been back on my
beloved islands for awhile now, rejoicing in the present beauties. But
when our mild seasons shift, and I feel that change in the air, every once in awhile I get a hankering for
tulips and lilies and crocuses, things that don't readily grow over
here. I remember the fruit orchards and the hay rides and the farmers
markets with apple jelly. I remember the magic of walking down Center
Street in a lightly falling snow, bundled in a scarf and coat and thick
boots, sipping cocoa, looking into the quaint shops and listening to
the carolers. Every place has it's wonders, and I've
learned to appreciate them wherever I go. By the time we left the
desert, I could look at those mountains and with reverence say, "Yes,
they
are beautiful!"